RAY

HOLY SHIT
Nicole is on her way, ten minutes away.
dfjghsdgv, so excited to see my girl ! 

 

Tonight hopefully it doesn’t rain. 
Nicole and I plan to go downtown to bring in the new year, minus the fact that Stereo’s will be there… yuck. But still, so excited to see my girl!
Can’t wait for her to come here, Expect pictures and videos, a lot of them.

so far what we have planned if our night downtown fails.
- a nail polish party
- fort making
- board game’s 
- rando house party.   

This year has graced me with more than a handful of memories and experiences. 

I have been able to work with some of the most amazing people. 
I worked for charity events such as ART4CAUSES, had a mini photography job for The Wire Megazine, was able to be on stage with Ron Sexsmith, worked Gala’s for cosmetics, put in my final shift at my hair salon I’ve been working at for 3 years, worked with amazing friends at Halloween Haunt, and took on the job as being an editor for The4.

This year taught me how to appreciate things.
I have never been so fascinated with the beauty of simplicity and nature. 
I blame yoga for this.  

This year has also taught me to appreciate the people  you meet.
I took a huge, and unexpected jump into life, I moved out.
Never would I of thought I’d leave home. I’m glad I did. I’ve met amazing people at sheridan and in residence. Some who I will never, ever forget. I swear we are like family there. When ever I needed someone either because I was having a panic attack, or simply just needing someone, someone was there. I was blessed to meet Nicole. She is one girl who has made a huge impact on me. No matter when I start to tell someone about her I instantly start to choke up. She kept me sane. 

This year I was able to get over taking medication for my disorder.
I was able to get over loves and lies. I was able to get over my fear of talking to people. I was able to pull myself out of depression and to start actually taking risks and chances. I’m proud of myself. I’ve finally accepted the way I look, act and am.

This year hurt, a lot. I lost my best friends. I regret it everyday for a reason I still do not understand. I passed my 10 year mark with my grandfather not being here. I miss my parents every day when I’m in residence. I’ve been fucked over multiple times this year, but I’m not dwelling on it anymore. Time to live life. 

This year I spent most of my free time inspiring myself.
Almost every month I spent a day in the AGO. I found new mediums, I found new artists, and found new ways to express myself. I’ve been told by a few that I’ve inspired them, and thats one thing that has made my year. I keep myself motivated by watching films, going for late walks and just reading.

This year I put myself out there with my art.
I still will never forget my portfolio evaluation with David S Armstrong, that day I could die I was so happy. Almost every week I go through a critique I strongly believe they help, no matter what anyone says.

This year I was able to see; 
Tegan and sara, An horse, City and colour, Julie dorin, The National, The Antlers, The Reason, Sights and Sounds, Moneen, The Sadies, Ron Sexsmith, Ra Ra Riot, and Wintersleep. Wangechi Mutu, Shary Boyle, Tim Burton, Julian Schnable, and Edward Steichen’s exhibits. 

 This year I threw away the one thing that I actually worked hard for. 
My acceptation into Independent Digital Photography. I’ll never forget when I opened up that letter, I cried and screamed. I’m happy with what I’m doing now. I love seeing how much i’m developing into an artist. This semester coming up i’m giving it my all.

This year I grew closer to my parents. 
My mom is my best friend and my dad is my idol. Always will be.
My mother has a heart of gold and I wish I’m like her when I get to be her age. 
My dad is just the best. I could not ask for anything more in a father. He has a good head on his shoulders and is the strongest man I have ever met. I am so glad to have parents as accepting as them. They are behind me for everything and anytime I need them they are there. Hold on to your parents, They are the ones who gave you life.

This year I am finding out who I am. 
I am a girl, who wants to be an art teacher/ gallery worker. 
I figure I will always wear black. I will stay strong through anything. 
I am content with being on my own, or in the company with others. 
I will never wear socks. I am vegetarian, and proud of it. 
I love and care too much. I drink too much, and sleep too little. 
It’s okay to be single, It’s okay to be different, It’s all okay. 

2011, You have a lot to step up too. 

Because clearly I don’t have any. 
Add in trust as well.

Just as I was settling into being excited to go back to Oakville to see everyone and to just be back in school again. It goes to pieces. 
I can not believe this. 
These past 5 months just keep getting worse. 

I swear when the clock hits midnight on new years eve I will be in the worst state of mind with the best person I could ask for. 
2011, I will hate you. 
I cant wait to be in my dorm alone. 
Just alone painting, doing homework, drinking and sleeping. 
moody bitchy pretentious artist life, here we go. 

 

Eric SO SO MUCH. 

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I’m not rehired for next year at haunt. 
Glad I gave it my all when I was super sick to have my manager write me off.
fuck that.  

went downtown with steph today, was attacked by a bird, 3 times.. figures. 
failed shopping minus the fact I bought the most haggard sweater at black market, I’ve been looking for it months. Ate sushi, so full i’m going to die. Ran into new people. awkward times in adrenaline. Ran into jasmine in H&M, still cute as ever. bought bestfriend earrings with steph, then headed back home. ran into alessia and cara. SO good to see them. Now heading to H&M to find this hideous dress shirt.

I knew my eyes were off! 

Oh boy  have they gotten bad, He almost said I may need to wear glasses all the time while I’m in class. Now im sitting around waiting for Steph to text me back..
I may just go downtown on my own and just meet up with her whenever.
I’m really anxious to go down and buy the ugliest floral dress shirt. 
I really need to start enjoying wearing socks, my feet are freezing.

For the first time ever, I am ready before my dad. 
I’m sitting waiting to be taken to my eye appointment.
I have such a headache it’s unbelievable.
After I get my eyes checked I’m on my way to going downtown with Steph. 
Hopefully I’ll run into Jordon.
After that i’m going thrifting and then getting coffee with Heather.
busy. busy. day.