From june till I move back to res, I have made a use for my mistake of moleskine journals. For the next few months, everyday, I am going to draw something that had to do with my day.
- -Well I wasn't necessarily planning on it but it was just natural
- -Natural as in what?
- -Im not sure. it didn't feel weird and I enjoyed it
- -I dont know what you want
- - I'm just not even sure, I agree it's not fair and I don't want to do that to you I just feel unguided a bit right now. I don't want you to be hurt
- -You tell me not to wait during the summer, yet I just don't know what you want after that night
- - I guess I just have to tell you to try to move on because I cant be for sure about anything right now
- -That's all I needed to know.
Alright, time to get serious and get a job. I’m sitting here in tear’s stressing over money.
No seriously, forget flowers, notes, jewellery. If I had a boyfriend I’d only want one thing.
A blue raspberry slushie. Surprise me with that and I’ll go head over heels for you.
Going outside to tan, melanoma you can fuck off for today. I am enjoying the sun.
After multiple beer’s, some whiskey and vodka. I can easily say two things. Whoops, broke my no drinking for the summer rule, and I had one of the most memorable nights.
I have learned that these two girls are probably the most caring, fun and enjoyable humans to be around. Who would of guessed that we would be going through the same situations with our friends back at home. How our friends avoid us, think we are bad influences, and just want nothing to do with us. I’ve come to know several people now in these situations. It blows my mind how harsh people can be without even giving people the chance. Putting that aside, I love these girls. At first I admit I was nervous to meet them in september, we became close in december, and I couldn’t be happier.
Sadly plans didn’t work out the way we would of enjoyed, Shannon and I only got into the show. I hate security guards, they ruin everything, assholes. Once we got in, shannon and I grabbed a beer, shannon gracefully dropped her empty, and we made out way outside for a smoke. I don’t mean to sound like a fangirl, but there was one of the guitarist’s, Jeremy, outside. We expressed facial expressions to each other and laughed.
It didn’t hit me till later while freedom blade played and tears were blurring up my eyes that, that man, that man who just laughed with me, got me through the toughest of times. It felt good. Especially since my drunken state was texting curtis. I received closure. I could not be any happier about our situation. We let each other go, we are free.
After the crying and drunk texting I ran into Jeff from res, and his friend Matt.
We went up stairs at Lee’s and got a drink. Lucky me it was 80’s night, and there were only 2 people dancing. Which turned into just Matt and I spinning around the dance floor to ” Just dance” by david bowie.
May 30th, you have been good to me.
DJ shannon + the drunkard.