“And I don’t want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found.”
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June 2011
Packing for new market, and my cottage at the same time.
Spending the night at my aunt’s then getting picked up in the morning for the cottage.
I really hope I don’t over pack / forget to pack some stuff. I’m excited just to sit and talk to her and hangout with my cousin who turn’s 19 today. I’m contemplating if I should just stay up north all week and take some time to relax and hang out. Saturday I am going to orillia to visit my dad’s family, and knowing me I’ll have a huge cry fest again because my uncle looks so much like my grandfather, also I’ll probably cry my eye’s out when I see my aunt. I love my dad’s family, such amazing love-filled people. Saturday night I’m hoping I can head to the beach with Luc since the whole wasaga deal got cancelled. Apparently I’m going to niagara falls instead, which I am not complaining about at all.. Anyway’s, time to finish packing and enjoy this long weekend.
Going to lay outside in the sun and cry my eyes out part 2.
“Guess she gave you things I didn’t give to you.”
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Its funny how the one family member who use to put you so down, ends up taking care of you. Tonight I am off to Newmarket to spend the night at her house. She’s been through a lot and she just want’s to have a girls night with me. She found out whats been going on recently and just wants to relax with me. To be honest, I am really excited to see her.
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In bed
with a box of kleenex, a cup of tea and adele ” someone like you” on repeat.
Tonight fucking suck’s.
…. So plan’s to go to wasaga with my fam was cancelled.
I apologize.
“Why don’t you call me what we both know I am”
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Stephen's text's..
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I want to have a nap so badly, but here I am anxious and slightly upset.
I literally have no reason what so ever to be upset. Like I said before last night was perfect. I still can not believe he drove all the way from barrie to woodbine beach for 2 hours to sit on rock’s. My head is not clear at all. I have no idea where this is going, or where I want it to go. His job hold’s me back on so much. I was not expecting any of this what so ever, and now I have 3 weeks with him until he finds out when he leaves next..
